Sorrow of being...

I should be happy but I am sad
Mad., mad at the world around
Mad at me

I want to fly
High, touch the sky
Pulled down by
Myself I cry

Cry, cry for what?
The lose of love?
Love the way I want it
Not the way you think
The way I want it

Cry, cry for what,
The lose of time
Time of fun and joy
Not as you think it
The way I want it

May be yes,
I am petty, I am crazy
I know am not nice
But I am me

I should be me


I should be happy but I am sad
Mad., mad at the world around
Mad at me

No Rhyme No Reason

No rhyme no reason

Why I

Am with you

The pain I feel

Drives me closer to you

I realise that now

The days pass by

The fights, abuses and all

But I come back

How long,

Will go on this ?

No rhyme no reason

Why I

Am with you

The feelings the same

But something’s changed

The joy’s gone,

More of a hollow within

I loathe looking at you

But I can’t leave you

How long

Will go on this?

No rhyme no reason

Why I

Am with you

Yes, I love you still

But something’s changed

More of make believe

The thought of your touch

I shudder with fear

How long

Will go on this

No rhyme no reason

Why I

Am with you

I still hold on...

It makes me go crazy

The Past

But I never let others know

Still holding on to the grudges,

The mistakes,

Forgiveness, doesn't come

Naturally to me

I still hold on,

Even though, its all gone

The spitefulness within,

Burns more fiercely,

My thoughts hurt me more and more

The lids closed though and

the tumult within

Unknown to the ones I love

Respite I find through words and colours

But I still hold on

Even though, its all gone

Dark Secrets,

Deep Regrets

Somethings, never to be shared

Never to be let out

To the grave they will go

With me and me alone

A Pandora's Box,

But I still hold on

Even though, its all gone