Monday, March 27, 2017

The Journey is the Purpose...

I thought I knew everything that is to life... the past few months have changed that perception of mine. It is true that I have gone through experiences that many in my age would  not have till now. The fact that what I have gone through has contributed to my growth as a person and increased my understanding about life and myself  is also true. But now I think I am still largely ignorant about life...and seeking to understand the purpose of my life..

Logic cannot define what happens in life. It is experiential and different for everyone. The difference is in the experience and the way each of us look at these experiences. I used to be of the view that our character defines how we face certain situations, overcome difficulties, handle people and basically live life. But where does this 'character' come from? What factors govern this 'character'? What does it comprise of?  Is it totally dependent on me or you as an individual separate from family, religion, or society??  From the time we are born we are molded, corrected according to what is 'acceptable', 'appropriate', 'expected'. We are made to create this box of our own beyond which we cannot venture... all our thoughts are they ours? Or are we just repeating what we have been conditioned to think is right.

But that does not mean living a life without values or principles, but what are the values that are eternal and do not change - I seek those values! Values that connect humanity - or may be that drive creation.

I have also been wondering about this concept of the collective human un/conscious how does each individual action get reflected into this collective and what does that mean when I think regarding the consequences of my action beyond my lifetime.

This journey is a journey of solitude and silence, reflection and rigour... It is also endless - eternal - The journey of the human being...seeking purpose.

Sunday, March 26, 2017


What I seek has not changed,
Neither has how I feel,
This is not about you and I,
Not just us but even more
Friendship, you say
I say love is the core
Love isn't complicated, we are
The manifestation of our needs, thoughts and deeds
We can choose, but
To love or not, is not a choice
It is the beginning
The source.

Saturday, March 25, 2017


I wish to run
To you
Not to comfort you
To be held and comforted
Selfishness drives me to you
No doubt!
The questions unanswered
The questions unasked
Linger between us

The hope;
The bridge will soon be made
And we will cross over
To this place of serenity and solace

Togetherness won't ask for sacrifice
Nor for compromise
All it would need is to
Understand and accept
To be and let us be

Friday, March 24, 2017

From Pain to Possibilities

To get hurt
To feel the pain
Wrenching the heart
Is to realise your
To remind you that
Your vanity was in
How to
Embrace the hurt,
the pain?
What matters?
The awareness of each experience,
The experience of each emotion
The realisation
There are always path of possibilities
Tread on, run ahead...


Wednesday, March 22, 2017

A journey to the soul..

I yearn for a journey
To the souls
Explore the depths of
Our thoughts and desires
The core of our being
The light beckons
You see only darkness
I see the path to my salvation

I can see you laugh
Silently at my ramblings of passion
But rest I will not
Until the pursued joins the pursuit
For I know you will

Hidden in your contempt is the need to be
More than now,
And what better than the love of love
Unbridled by rights and wrongs of the present
But guided by creation
Vibrant and alive
To show you the path you desire and fear...
Is but the truth of your being..

Democracy of the confounded

What's right what wrong,
Who will decide for whom
The hand , the sickle or the lotus bloom
The common man...
Who is she?
The majority...
Where are they?
The voters...
What do they do?
The country...
Is it even true?
What choice do I have,
Or do you?
To be where you are..
To live where you do...

To do what you want...

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

It's not easy...

I know,
What I seek when I
Gaze into your eyes
Nothing's simple
Nothing's straight
It's not easy to feel what I do
And be polite and nice

You said you want
To be held and never let go
To kiss and be
It took my soul all its strength
To contain my fluttering heart
And handle my bated breathe
For it’s not easy to feel what I do
And be polite and nice

It may be passe for you
Just a phase of
Curiosity or entertainment
It's confusing no doubt
Each moment spent in
Conversation and chatter
For it’s not easy to feel what I do
And be polite and nice

Loss of nothing

That feeling
That grows on you
The mould on the bread,
The moss on the wall
The havoc of a storm
It creeps in unnoticed
Benign and needy
Until it strikes you in core
And puts you down
The feeling of loss
When there was nothing to be lost...

Monday, March 20, 2017


She lay there staring at the darkness above
A torn body, the mind in shreds
Unwilling to get up,
She felt nothing within
Nothing but darkness
Her rage was impotent
Her fire was gone
In the blaze of power
Unwilling to fight
The battle that was
Without a choice or consent
Her love was shattered
Her warmth was gone
She lay there staring at the ceiling
Unwilling to get up
Unwilling to fight.