Monday, August 10, 2009

Out of loneliness....

Loneliness is something that can drive a person to doing things that are irrational and thoughtless. It is like a black hole, the gravitational force, or a whirlpool...

I never thought that I would be in such a situation.

Its not that I dread being alone but just that I just realised that I have numerous friends and well wishers but not that one friend ( most have childhood friends) who would be there for you whenever and wherever, who you know all your life... I am not cribbing here but as a kid I had to tag along with my dad wherever he got posted and thus I know many people... some of them became very good friends in the short span of time we were together...but then we drift apart...years and locational problems.. Never thought of it at that time...was too busy making new friends...being popular in the new school..etc etc

Yeah there are few very special people in my life...but again the distance plays the devil...So when I feel like going shopping... I have to go alone ( which by the way is okay the first few times, but not always). Just a walk around the corner seems long and boring when you have been doing that alone for weeks.

The last time in Bangalore too I was haunted by the same obnoxious feeling. This time I thought it would be different...but looks like we are going down the same road... but this time there is no running away...

2 comments:

meher said...

probably its pure co-incidence....i too had the same thought sometime bak, but i was able to get over with it. probably because i had new friends with me. i dont know the answer. but whenever i felt i was lonely i had someone or the other to fall upon. but never did i get the opportunity to fall back on my childhood friends. i dont know if der are lucky ppl who get such an opportunity.....

hunterr said...

if u r lonely wen u r with frnds .. its sad.. probably bcoz ur not interested in wat they do or talk ..