The Journey is the Purpose...

I thought I knew everything that is to life... the past few months have changed that perception of mine. It is true that I have gone through experiences that many in my age would  not have till now. The fact that what I have gone through has contributed to my growth as a person and increased my understanding about life and myself  is also true. But now I think I am still largely ignorant about life...and seeking to understand the purpose of my life..

Logic cannot define what happens in life. It is experiential and different for everyone. The difference is in the experience and the way each of us look at these experiences. I used to be of the view that our character defines how we face certain situations, overcome difficulties, handle people and basically live life. But where does this 'character' come from? What factors govern this 'character'? What does it comprise of?  Is it totally dependent on me or you as an individual separate from family, religion, or society??  From the time we are born we are molded, corrected according to what is 'acceptable', 'appropriate', 'expected'. We are made to create this box of our own beyond which we cannot venture... all our thoughts are they ours? Or are we just repeating what we have been conditioned to think is right.

But that does not mean living a life without values or principles, but what are the values that are eternal and do not change - I seek those values! Values that connect humanity - or may be that drive creation.

I have also been wondering about this concept of the collective human un/conscious how does each individual action get reflected into this collective and what does that mean when I think regarding the consequences of my action beyond my lifetime.

This journey is a journey of solitude and silence, reflection and rigour... It is also endless - eternal - The journey of the human being...seeking purpose.

Untitled..Incomplete

What I seek has not changed,

Neither has how I feel,

This is not about you and I,

Not just us but even more

Friendship, you say

I say love is the core

Love isn't complicated, we are

The manifestation of our needs, thoughts and deeds

We can choose, but

To love or not, is not a choice

It is the beginning

The source.

Together...

I wish to run

To you

Not to comfort you

To be held and comforted

Selfishness drives me to you
No doubt!

The questions unanswered

The questions unasked
Linger between us

The hope;

The bridge will soon be made

And we will cross over

To this place of serenity and solace

Together....

Togetherness won't ask for sacrifice

Nor for compromise

All it would need is to

Understand and accept

To be and let us be

From Pain to Possibilities

To get hurt

To feel the pain

Wrenching the heart

Is to realise your

Humanity

To remind you that

Your vanity was in

Vain

How to

Embrace the hurt,

the pain?

What matters?

The awareness of each experience,

The experience of each emotion

The realisation

There are always path of possibilities

Ahead,

Tread on, run ahead...

Smile...

A journey to the soul..

I yearn for a journey

To the souls

Explore the depths of

Our thoughts and desires

The core of our being

The light beckons

You see only darkness

I see the path to my salvation

I can see you laugh

Silently at my ramblings of passion

But rest I will not

Until the pursued joins the pursuit

For I know you will

Hidden in your contempt is the need to be

More than now,

And what better than the love of love

Unbridled by rights and wrongs of the present

But guided by creation

Vibrant and alive

To show you the path you desire and fear...

Is but the truth of your being..

Democracy of the confounded

What's right what wrong,

Who will decide for whom

The hand , the sickle or the lotus bloom

The common man...

Who is she?

The majority...

Where are they?

The voters...

What do they do?

The country...

Is it even true?

What choice do I have,

Or do you?

To be where you are..

To live where you do...

To do what you want...

It's not easy...

I know,

What I seek when I

Gaze into your eyes

Nothing's simple

Nothing's straight

It's not easy to feel what I do

And be polite and nice

You said you want

To be held and never let go

To kiss and be

It took my soul all its strength

To contain my fluttering heart

And handle my bated breathe

For it’s not easy to feel what I do

And be polite and nice

It may be passe for you

Just a phase of

Curiosity or entertainment

It's confusing no doubt

Each moment spent in

Conversation and chatter

For it’s not easy to feel what I do

And be polite and nice

Loss of nothing

That feeling

That grows on you

like,

The mould on the bread,

The moss on the wall

The havoc of a storm

It creeps in unnoticed

Benign and needy

Until it strikes you in core

And puts you down

The feeling of loss

When there was nothing to be lost...

Unwilling...

She lay there staring at the darkness above
A torn body, the mind in shreds
Unwilling to get up,
She felt nothing within
Nothing but darkness
Her rage was impotent
Her fire was gone
Burnt
In the blaze of power
Unwilling to fight
The battle that was
Without a choice or consent
Her love was shattered
Her warmth was gone
She lay there staring at the ceiling
Unwilling to get up
Unwilling to fight.