Restless..

Restless I have been for sometime now,
Restless I will be, until
In Your arms, I know I will find peace
You may ignore me,
Slight me or hurt me,
But I know You care,
I know I may scare
But it is just my Love
I know not how to share
I myself am scared
You are rare, so gentle but indifferent
And precious to me...
And I know You care,

Restless I have been for sometime now,
Restless I will be, until

In Your arms, I know I will find peace right now

Courage in a woman is often mistaken as insanity

Someone recently told me that I am too independent(which is a bad thing.) ... I do not understand that.. too independent in relation to what and who? I believe that I need emotional dependence... and i crave and search for that... fearless.. even that is a misnomer... all of us have fears .. some of then which we are unaware of... i treasure that fact that I am a woman... and my expressions reflect that. Ii is tough being 'seen' as a misfit as a black sheep... and sometimes you start 'feeling' that you are.. Courage is about facing your fears, challenging your inhibitions and I believe that is what is required... 

Sorrow of being...

I should be happy but I am sad
Mad., mad at the world around
Mad at me

I want to fly
High, touch the sky
Pulled down by
Myself I cry

Cry, cry for what?
The lose of love?
Love the way I want it
Not the way you think
The way I want it

Cry, cry for what,
The lose of time
Time of fun and joy
Not as you think it
The way I want it

May be yes,
I am petty, I am crazy
I know am not nice
But I am me

I should be me


I should be happy but I am sad
Mad., mad at the world around
Mad at me

..Untitled...

No...

This feeling of loneliness and boredom I dread

Not just dread but hate

Suffocation

It is a bait,

A bait, a temptation

To be reckless

Pulled back, restricted...

I feel

Waiting to fly away

I betray

My duties, my determination

Desperate,

I look around for words,

words, Words!

Soothing words

Of love, support and inspiration

Nought! Nothing!

Where are you?

I look around again and again

Bring me some motivation

To go on undaunted

To be, to stay 

So that I don't betray

My duties, my determination